Confusion

If i really love u that much why should i even think of letting u go? Maybe.. maybe i know that our relationship might not work? Or maybe because i know this is a one sided-romance? Or is it just plain coward? I saw u on9 that day, i was actually very happy.. but sometimes is just that how u feel about others does not make others feel the same for u, so... its kinda like i really wanted to talk to u but i dunno wat i should say. Haihz. But i'm glad to know u're alright there. Perhaps u hv even found someone u like there. Well, as long as u're happy, i will be.. for u. Ah, hack.. I'm pathetic.

Best In Me

Sometimes ur words means different to others. I dunno. It seems happening to me all the time. Well, i'm suppose i'm a lousy speaker? Same goes to the things u do. U know u're goin to fail and yet u tried. Human nature? I'm not that sure either. Perhaps i knew that u dont like me but yet it seems that there is always this hope that keeps me goin on. I dunno why i love u so much. Maybe its not all about the hope, maybe is because u bring out the best in me that none other can.

Cause u bring out the best in me
Like no one else can do
That's why i'm by ur side
That's why i love u

I really do miss u so much even until now. Seriously, i'm so down without u and sometimes i wish i could see u again eventhough... The reason why i blogged so much lesser nowadays because blogging reminds me of u. A place where i voiced out my heart. Though it reminds me of u, yet i'm still doing it.

Incomplete

Its been a awhile again. I'm seriously lost nowadays and for the past month i've been completely stupefied. I guess i'm really completely in love with her. I still cant let u go. Is all my fault, i should hv told u how i felt about u but i hesitated. I'm such a coward and a loser. But even if i told u how much i love u that doesnt make u feel the same way towards me. I hesitated because i think i'm not good enough for u. U're really the one girl i ever see this way before. Is really... i dunno.. Haihz. There is so many question i wanna ask u and i've not seen u for awhile. I know u know how i feel about u. That is why i hesitated even more when i saw u. Is really a one-sided romance i think this is.

Do u still remember the phrase i once told u before? Happy and whole? I finally know wat it means to be happy and whole. Because i'm so incomplete nowadays no matter what i do, without you. If i were to be given a choice on having u and letting go everything in my life, i do. Because i know i love u.