All my life

Well.. ermm this might be my last blogging coz i dunno when will i blog again because.. there is a number of reasons :

1) Uni starting pretty soon and ermm.. i dunno whether izzit stressful or not so ermm.. might not have the time.
2) This is killing me and i hope to stop
3) Hold on to what i hv left within me

Well, since this is the last.. i better make it a long wan. I really wanted to tell u that i really find u the most special person that i hv ever met. U changed me to a better person.. more mature perhaps? Really, u're the only one that i've ever had this feelings for. I dunno. This question remains elusive, somehow. I know the chances of finding someone like u again is like.. ermm locating a particular person in a billions of crowd? Haha, i really dunno wat i'm saying here. Well, i dunno whether u like me or not but that doesnt matter anymore coz we might not be seeing each other again. Seriously, i dun mind studying anything. In fact, i had a plan once to study with the one i love most. Haha, immature eh? Well, i guess life never turns out according to plan, in my case. But i think, i'm never worthy for u. Perhaps, ermm.. i dunno.. immature? the way i talk? Haha, still talking like one. For the past 2 months i've been really in a mess, goin to CC for almost 24 hours a day just to stop myself from thinking. Crazy eh? Haha. Well, i guess i cant hlp it. But for the past 2 months besides all the CC i still did something which i think is more.. ermm... useful? Ermmm... essential? Nar, i dunno the word. I've already obtained my driving license and my piano lesson is half way through. As u can see.. i still like u alot. In fact i dunno whether i'll get over u. Maybe not. I really dunno what more i can say... is like... i've used all my words on u that there is none left. Sometimes is better not seeing each other because i rather not see u than to see u with another guy. Well, just hope that u'll find a guy that find himself worthy for u and most importantly, love u as much as i do or perhaps more than i do. And one last thing.. I heard this song in the radio that day and immediately the very 1st person i think of was u. This song means alot to me. Listen to this song.. is something from me to u, if u ever find ur way to this blog of mine..