All my life

Well.. ermm this might be my last blogging coz i dunno when will i blog again because.. there is a number of reasons :

1) Uni starting pretty soon and ermm.. i dunno whether izzit stressful or not so ermm.. might not have the time.
2) This is killing me and i hope to stop
3) Hold on to what i hv left within me

Well, since this is the last.. i better make it a long wan. I really wanted to tell u that i really find u the most special person that i hv ever met. U changed me to a better person.. more mature perhaps? Really, u're the only one that i've ever had this feelings for. I dunno. This question remains elusive, somehow. I know the chances of finding someone like u again is like.. ermm locating a particular person in a billions of crowd? Haha, i really dunno wat i'm saying here. Well, i dunno whether u like me or not but that doesnt matter anymore coz we might not be seeing each other again. Seriously, i dun mind studying anything. In fact, i had a plan once to study with the one i love most. Haha, immature eh? Well, i guess life never turns out according to plan, in my case. But i think, i'm never worthy for u. Perhaps, ermm.. i dunno.. immature? the way i talk? Haha, still talking like one. For the past 2 months i've been really in a mess, goin to CC for almost 24 hours a day just to stop myself from thinking. Crazy eh? Haha. Well, i guess i cant hlp it. But for the past 2 months besides all the CC i still did something which i think is more.. ermm... useful? Ermmm... essential? Nar, i dunno the word. I've already obtained my driving license and my piano lesson is half way through. As u can see.. i still like u alot. In fact i dunno whether i'll get over u. Maybe not. I really dunno what more i can say... is like... i've used all my words on u that there is none left. Sometimes is better not seeing each other because i rather not see u than to see u with another guy. Well, just hope that u'll find a guy that find himself worthy for u and most importantly, love u as much as i do or perhaps more than i do. And one last thing.. I heard this song in the radio that day and immediately the very 1st person i think of was u. This song means alot to me. Listen to this song.. is something from me to u, if u ever find ur way to this blog of mine..

Confusion

If i really love u that much why should i even think of letting u go? Maybe.. maybe i know that our relationship might not work? Or maybe because i know this is a one sided-romance? Or is it just plain coward? I saw u on9 that day, i was actually very happy.. but sometimes is just that how u feel about others does not make others feel the same for u, so... its kinda like i really wanted to talk to u but i dunno wat i should say. Haihz. But i'm glad to know u're alright there. Perhaps u hv even found someone u like there. Well, as long as u're happy, i will be.. for u. Ah, hack.. I'm pathetic.

Best In Me

Sometimes ur words means different to others. I dunno. It seems happening to me all the time. Well, i'm suppose i'm a lousy speaker? Same goes to the things u do. U know u're goin to fail and yet u tried. Human nature? I'm not that sure either. Perhaps i knew that u dont like me but yet it seems that there is always this hope that keeps me goin on. I dunno why i love u so much. Maybe its not all about the hope, maybe is because u bring out the best in me that none other can.

Cause u bring out the best in me
Like no one else can do
That's why i'm by ur side
That's why i love u

I really do miss u so much even until now. Seriously, i'm so down without u and sometimes i wish i could see u again eventhough... The reason why i blogged so much lesser nowadays because blogging reminds me of u. A place where i voiced out my heart. Though it reminds me of u, yet i'm still doing it.

Incomplete

Its been a awhile again. I'm seriously lost nowadays and for the past month i've been completely stupefied. I guess i'm really completely in love with her. I still cant let u go. Is all my fault, i should hv told u how i felt about u but i hesitated. I'm such a coward and a loser. But even if i told u how much i love u that doesnt make u feel the same way towards me. I hesitated because i think i'm not good enough for u. U're really the one girl i ever see this way before. Is really... i dunno.. Haihz. There is so many question i wanna ask u and i've not seen u for awhile. I know u know how i feel about u. That is why i hesitated even more when i saw u. Is really a one-sided romance i think this is.

Do u still remember the phrase i once told u before? Happy and whole? I finally know wat it means to be happy and whole. Because i'm so incomplete nowadays no matter what i do, without you. If i were to be given a choice on having u and letting go everything in my life, i do. Because i know i love u.

Abyss

Really wat more can go wrong? I really dunno wat more to say. Lost my IC and results are bad. Previously i already have a bad premonition about my results. I thought i was just too worried about it till the day i saw my own results. Haihz. Really. Everything is lost. I'm living in an abyss now. A memorable year aint it? 2007. What a piece of crap i'm writing? I hv no idea myself.

Without You

Is it possible that one soul cannot live without another soul? Last time, i've always think that this is not possible. But as days past, i've begin to realise that it is possible that one cannot live without another person, someone important to him or perhaps his love. For the past week, i've really been in a mess, everything i did was ... was... completely... i mean i'm like a lifeless soul nowadays. Nar, i dunno wat to say anymore. This is just... hard.

Without You:

Oh I can't forget this evening
Or your face when you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows, yes it shows

Oh I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live, if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore

I can't live, if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore

How Deep Is Your Love?

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm with your love then you softly leave

And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you, you know the door to a better song
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do

And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

Girl you came to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love then you softly leave

And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

How deep is your love?