I Still

Its good to hv finally found the answer and not to be a sadist all the time. Recently, i keep getting awake from my sleep in the middle of the night. Though everything is over but I still recall the past and think of u most of the time. I was wondering where have u been lately, because i still owe u an apology for acting so naive and... I've been missing u.

Until The End of Time

Its been 5 months eversince i really fall in love with u. I hv been thinking recently and figure that the things i hv done in the past was wrong. Wrong in the sense that, the way i've acted is so naive. To be truthful, is really ok if anyone said i'm emo or something but the reason i've posted so many of this so called 'emo post' is really wat ive been thinking of for the past 5 months. Everything i do, u will be on my mind. Well, everything has to over soon. There is just one more thing left for me to say. Haha. I'm a coward, i think i wouldnt dare tell u face to face. I owe u an apology. I dunno how much longer my love for u will last, maybe, another couple of years before i can erase all the feelings as feelings wont fade easily. Well, maybe this is the time for me to stop acting so naive and life has to go on, rite? But i will always remember that i hv love u.. Until the end of time.

Until The End of Time :

Woke up this morning
Heard the TV sayin' something
'Bout disaster in the world and
It made me wonder where I'm going
There's so much darkness in the world
But I see beauty left in you girl
And what you give me let's me know
That I'll be alright

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

Now if you're ever wondering
About the way I'm feeling
Well baby girl there ain't no question
Just to be around you is a blessing
Sick and tired of trying to save the world
I just want to spend my time with you girl
And what you're giving me
Let's me know that we'll be alright.

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
That would be enough
Until the end of time

Goodbye Me Pal

He's the only sri lankan fren i know. Oh wait, he's not the onli sri lankan fren i know, i know 2 sri lankan. Haha. His name is Anthony. He's leaving today. Well, we was once classmates. He's a nice guy. Serious. I wont forget u man. Sory, i really dunno wat to say. My sentences nowadays is like all in pieces and parcel. Sory man, i'm an idiot. I dunno whether u know about my blog anot but i really do hope u will come back one day. Gimme a call when u do. And of course good luck in ur life and everything. Still a long road to our destination. Haha. I will always remember u. Dun worry. Haha. Bye, my friend.

Re-evaluation

For once i thought u hv still a glimpse of feelings towards me. Such a fool. How could i not know? I just realized that the little glimpse of feelings doesnt exist at all. The things u said to me, the word u use, the tone. I really thought that.... Maybe i am a fool after all. U might not have a clue wat u said to me but everything u said to me is a memory to me. I really hope u do have feelings for me. Please tell me u do....

Wisdom? I dun think i hv even a tiny bit of that virtue now. Maybe that is why some ppl choose not to love anymore. Yea, truely, i might hv been a fool for her, but for those that choose not to love anymore, they might hv forgotten the sweet memories behind the love. Kinda sad to know that she doesnt like me at all.. but i will nv regret loving u because it was u who make me into a better person and of course the memories. Damn, i'm pathetic.

The song, Linger, always remind me of how i am such a fool for u and my lingering feelings upon u.

Perhaps i need some time to re-evaluate myself, things i hv done, everything. But one thing is for sure, I really do like u. It would be selfish for me to use the word love for i dun think i'm mature enough to love u. After everything. I'm sory.

Emo dude

Lol. 1st thing i come on9, my fren pm me and said hi, wanna go out yam cha? Emo dude? I like swt. Emo dude? =.= Hmm, dunno maybe i am one. Haha but i guess they wont understand the feeling. Its been awhile eversince i saw her. To me is like a year or more. Haihz, i really dunno wat am i suppose to do. Really, is only me that liked her not the other way so perhaps she wont know either. Oh God.. What the heck am i talking? Ah, and my sinus is killing me as always.

Btw, to these days that seem like a year, i found out some interesting names. Haha.

i) Lestat
ii) Lucius
iii) Lancelot
iv) Leia
v) Lucilla

But, i think Lestat is the best. Haha.

Oh, yea i also found out some distinctive virtues of life. Well, here it goes:

i) Wisdom

The way i'm acting, i dun think i hv this virtue.

ii) Ambition

This one i guess i hv. Haha. Is just the matter of whether it can be achieved or not.

iii) Temperance

Not sure.

iv) Fortitude

Abit kua.

v) Devotion

Er... no?

vi) Courageous

Nv. U wont find this virtue on a coward i guess. Haha.

Shallow

There is nv one day i could stop myself from thinking bout u. In fact, everything i do, u're somehow always on my mind. I couldn't hlp myself for falling so deep for you. U're everything to me, gorgeous, smart, lovely, everything. U're just simply flawless to me. Dwelling in this never-ending illusion is really hard for my love for u is tormenting me everyday. I really hope that u can tell me that u like me as much as i like u but i know this is absurd. Sometimes, i just hope that u will tell me that u dun like me so that i can get over u, truely, or maybe one day when we meet again, i'll be seeing u holding hands with another guy. I really hope i can get over u and keep u away from my mind but I cant... the more i try to forget u, the more i am thinking of you. I just... cant. Fortitude is what keep me standing still these days. It seems like an illusion all the while, life is. I guess i'm just too shallow..

How Did I Fall In Love With You

Remember when
We never needed each other
The best of friends
Like sister and brother
We understood
We’d never
be Alone

Those days are gone
Now I want you so much
The night is long
And I need your touch
Don’t know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don’t wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child
That I resemble
I cannot pretend
That we can still be friends
Don’t wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

I wanna say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don’t wanna live this lie
I don’t wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything’s changed, we never knew
How did I fall in love with you